With the undertow: Friday Update

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News:

My cat story “Turning Tail” has been posted on Crystal Lake’s Patreon as a finalist for this month’s Shallow Waters theme of Old School (Creature Feature). These stories are available to read and vote on if you’re in the $5/month tiers or higher.

Works in Progress:

I finished the final edits for Tattered & Torn (Meridian Book 6) and the final edits of the first chapter of Tooth & Claw (M7) that will be included as a teaser at the end of T&T, so that’s done and dusted and sent off to my publisher with a sigh of relief. Tattered & Torn is already available for preorder, if you’re interested in a story about a fallen angel with empathic powers.

I had trouble getting started on a flash piece yesterday, but I’ve tackled a lot of it today. I don’t know if I can finish tonight, but I’ll try for end of tomorrow morning at the latest. I want to do another piece of flash for the month, but meeting my self-imposed editing deadlines might be hard enough to accomplish.

Books I’m Reading:

The Fisherman by John Langan
Playlist of the Damned edited by Willow Dawn Becker and Jess Landry
Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin

Things I’m Listening To:

Evanescence
Emilie Autumn
Rossini’s Stabat Mater by the Wiener Philharmoniker
Resist (Instrumentals) by Within Temptation
Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson
Broadway My Way by Linda Eder
Church of Scars by Bishop Briggs
dont smile at me by Billie Eilish
Evita movie soundtrack
Falling into You by Celine Dion
Fear & Fable by Fleurie
The Fifty Shades movie soundtracks
For the Throne album (music inspired by Game of Thrones)
Fumbling Towards Ecstasy by Sarah McLachlan

Things I’m Watching:

Geostorm
Smile 2
Celebrity Jeopardy series
Watson series
Elsbeth series
The Hunting Party series (finished)
CSI series
Slasher: Guilty Party series
S.W.A.T. series
Brooklyn Nine-Nine series
The Bondsman series

What You’ve Done to My Poetry

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I almost completely lost my poetry since January, but I finally managed this on why. Photo by icon0 com on Pexels.com

Look what you’ve done to my poetry.
‘All for me and none for thee.’
How could you do this? How can you not see
that what you’re doing is killing me?

My verses wither at the brain-stem vine.
‘All for a price and none that’s thine.’
Replace it with shit and consign
the rest to the orbit of a waiting landmine.

Look what you’ve done to my poetry.
‘It’ll all get better. Just wait and see.’
Do more with less, no more quality or quantity,
sipping the tepid dregs of lead-lined tea.

My words drop and decay where they lie.
‘Iron bars for you and not for I.’
Bellies full of souls scorching the sky
garnish little more than a shrug and a sigh.

Look what you’ve done to my poetry.
‘What use is poetry, or literature, or humanity?’
We’ve decided that our main priority
Won’t be education at all, no college, no university.
Only dull, dreadful, deadened work, only productivity.
But God forbid you show the wrong kind of creativity,
something that doesn’t celebrate venomous positivity,
masculinity, or white supremacy.

Look what you’ve done to my poetry:
A pollen-streaked gravestone without a name,
Dead at thirty-eight, and no rhyme.

As the world keeps burning: Friday Update

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News:

None to share this week.

Works in Progress:

I edited the first chapter of Tooth & Claw (Meridian Book 7) and sent it in, and I got the final edits of Tattered & Torn (Meridian Book 6) back, so I’m working on that now. It’s moving quickly, but I had some car issues yesterday that means I didn’t get to do any edits at all. As soon as I finish with T&T, I’ll write some quick flash, then go back to working on T&C, shooting for sending it in by the end of the month.

Because Quill & Crow Publishing put up their novel submission call for this year, and it opens next month and closes June 1, which means I now have a hard deadline for getting dark alt-history Masque edited and submitted. I’ve trained for this.

Gig economy is exhausting and basically minimum wage after travel costs, but it’s still more than I reliably make writing, so it continues to be worth my time as a stop gap until I can finally get a steadier job (what a time to be looking). I am not looking forward to working in a Texas summer. I’m already melting like candle wax in the afternoons, my car A/C works but struggles, and we haven’t even cracked 90. I hate sweating.

But for now I still have free mornings (barring car troubles that send me to the mechanic), and I’m making sure to take a day off every week for my sanity and to get ahead on my writing. Trying to be more efficient with the time I have, but politics continue to make that difficult.

Books I’m Reading:

The Fisherman by John Langan
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier (finished)
Playlist of the Damned edited by Willow Dawn Becker and Jess Landry

Things I’m Listening To:

The Mist soundtrack
Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark soundtrack
Knowing soundtrack
The Best Damn Thing by Avril Lavigne
Brave Enough by Sara Bareilles

Things I’m Watching:

Reacher series (finished)
Celebrity Jeopardy series
Abbott Elementary series
Ghosts (US) series
Watson series
Elsbeth series
The Hunting Party series
Criminal Minds series
S.W.A.T. series
Brooklyn Nine-Nine series
The Bondsman series

The cancer no one wants to talk about

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My colonoscopy/endoscopy companion wants to remind you to get screened at 45, or earlier if you have concerning symptoms.

I want to preface this by saying that this post is good news. I’m not burying the lede on something so serious.

A few years ago, I experienced some significant gastrointestinal changes. I won’t go into the details, but I will say that I’ve been diagnosed with IBS since college (also with visceral hypersensitivity since a really bad gastroenteritis infection a little over ten years ago). IBS is a diagnosis of exclusion that basically means that my GI tract doesn’t have any inflammation, just a functional issue that is occasionally unpleasant but, by and large, harmless.

However, it shares some symptoms with colorectal cancer, which is much less harmless. I always knew I wanted to get a colonoscopy again before 40, rather than waiting for 45, which is when doctors recommend screenings for those with average risk for colorectal cancer. People have been getting colorectal cancer younger (ex: Chadwick Boseman and James Van Der Beek), and it tends to grow faster when it hits younger. My other concern was that my reliably erratic but harmless symptoms might mask something much less harmless.

The key in assessing your own erratic symptoms is in the patterns. My IBS has been, as I said, reliably erratic for two decades. Then things got less reliable, with a flare-up lasting 13 months instead of 3-4 at most (more typical for me). Now, there were some significant life changes at the time, not to mention that I’m simply getting older. However, changes in GI patterns is a key symptom to watch out for.

But I waited. I waited because I assumed I was going to get a job in the new year of 2024, so I’d dropped my health insurance. I waited a year without health insurance and unable to get a job before deciding I didn’t want to wait anymore. If something was wrong at my early age, by the time you have symptoms it’s probably already approaching advanced. I’d somehow deal with the problem of paying for treatment. If something wasn’t wrong, at least I’d have peace of mind, because at this point, I could no longer convince myself I was too young for what I was afraid of.

I talked to my nurse practitioner, who pointed me toward ColonoscopyAssist, which allows those without insurance or with bad coverage to set up a colonoscopy appointment out of pocket without having to get a referral to a gastroenterologist first. It’s expensive, around $1700 for the colonoscopy alone, but before 45 and officially covered screenings, it can actually be less expensive out of pocket than with poor insurance coverage. I set up the colonoscopy/endoscopy appointment for the end of March. (I have GERD and some stomach issues, hence the endoscopy. GERD can cause esophageal cancer due to constant inflammation from the acid reflux, so I’m trying to keep an eye on that, too.)

Prep was predictably unpleasant, although when you already have IBS, it’s not intolerable. The weeks of worry was worse. I was living with Schrodinger’s cancer. Usually I’m afraid of not waking up from anesthesia. This time, I was worried about waking up to bad news. I tried to prepare myself and discovered that knowing you can get the bad news doesn’t really prepare you. Part of your brain will always think it can’t happen to you, even if you know it can. It’ll always be an emotional shock, even if it isn’t an intellectual one.

I brought a small stuffed tiger with me to the procedure, because giant pandas are frowned upon and won’t fit on the hospital bed with me. The procedure is unpleasant to think about, but it’s significantly more pleasant to undergo than the prep, because you’re under the whole time.

After the procedure, I woke up groggy, kind of drunk, but I recovered pretty fast. My dad was there to bring me to the procedure and take me home, and he looked over the printouts with me prior to the gastroenterologist arriving, so I already had an idea of the relatively good news she was going to share.

My gastroenterologist informed me that she found some gastritis and a hiatal hernia in my stomach, which was expected but nothing to be concerned about. Then she said she found three polyps in my colon, all within normal range, and they appeared benign. She removed all three, but one of them had been on the large side of normal and had to be ablated, so I had to be careful exerting myself for a week. My visceral hypersensitivity means that I felt it more than the average person.

(You usually don’t feel your viscera, but the nerves in my colon are overactive, although not nearly as much as they were ten years ago anymore, thank goodness. In the initial months, it literally felt like organ failure, no exaggeration. That was when I got my first colonoscopy/endoscopy. Now my colon is just kind of…there and occasionally aches, because your viscera don’t have a lot of sensory nuance. If it feels anything, it’s mostly variations on pain.)

As of this week, pathology has officially confirmed that the polyps are hyperplastic and utterly benign. The relief that I felt from my gastroenterologist’s assessment after the procedure and after the official pathology assessment cannot be overstated. After the procedure, I had my dad take me to Braum’s for a chocolate shake in celebration (and to break the prep fast).

I am an anxious person, a worrier by nature, but I have a slew of ways that I deal with it by now. I’m pretty good about knowing when to wait and see and when to act, even if I don’t always have confidence in myself in that regard. I was right to advocate for my colorectal health, given the givens. I was right to be concerned and to seek out screenings, especially at my age, with the potential for my health issues to lead to dismissing bigger health concerns, with a family history of colon cancer (from not doing the screenings) and polyps, with changes in my gastrointestinal habits (no red flags, but a bunch of yellow flags). Just because the colonoscopy confirmed that my new problems are probably variations of old problems doesn’t mean my concerns weren’t valid.

I have one more specialist to see regarding different problems (and perhaps some of the same). I’ve set my appointment for next month. This specialist is fortunately covered by my bad insurance. There’s still some potential for bad news here, but it’s not as likely.

Changes in gastrointestinal habits are embarrassing, but they’re a major yellow flag in the realm of colorectal cancer, and as a friend says, your body’s warranty runs out at 35. Getting a colonoscopy is low stakes (if pricey) and more important than ever. Even if you don’t have any issues, you should absolutely get screened at 45, if not sooner. With the age of colorectal cancer incidence lowering, I’m surprised that the recommended screening age hasn’t gone down yet. Don’t let mortification or reluctance to talk about your gastrointestinal habits keep you from advocating for your health. If you don’t get it early, colorectal cancer is one of the easiest cancers to prevent.

Here are early warning signs of cancer (that share some symptoms with IBS and inflammatory bowel diseases): [Reference]
– Persistent change in bowel habits
– Narrow or pencil-thin stools
– Diarrhea or constipation
– Blood in the stool, rectal bleeding (blood may appear as bright red blood or dark stools)
– Persistent abdominal pain or discomfort, such as cramps or bloating
– Feeling that your bowel doesn’t empty completely
– Unexplained weight loss
– Fatigue, tiredness, or weakness

Since the troubles started: Friday Update

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News:

My flash piece “Turning Tail” is one of the twenty finalists for this month’s Shallow Waters flash fiction contest, theme Old School (creature features), at Crystal Lake’s Patreon ($5/month and up tiers). If everything goes the way it should, it’ll be posted on April 19.

My sweet-and-sour clown story “Exile” is out today in Undertaker Books’ Carnival of Horror. You can purchase it here. There have been a few reviews so far, and “Exile” is reviewing well so far.

I started in the gig economy earlier this week. The first day did not go well. The second day went better. I have things I really do not like about it and things I really do. What is clear is that it’s not a viable long-term option, so I’m continuing to send out resumes. But it should cover health care costs, at least. And the things I do like about it make it worth the while for now.

Works in Progress:

I finished the first publisher’s edit of Tattered & Torn (Meridian Book 6) and sent it in. I’m working on the Tooth & Claw (Meridian Book 7) edits now, but they’re going to be even slower now that I’m gigging. I’ve got to be more efficient with my available time.

Books I’m Reading:

The Fisherman by John Langan
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
Playlist of the Damned edited by Willow Dawn Becker and Jess Landry

Things I’m Listening To:

Abyss/Ascent playlist
Knowing soundtrack
Top 40 radio

Things I’m Watching:

Wicked
Mystery Island: Winner Takes All
Meltdown: Three Mile Island series (finished)
The Residence series (finished, highly recommended)
The Irrational series (finished)
Reacher series
Watson series
Elsbeth series
Criminal Minds series
S.W.A.T. series
Brooklyn Nine-Nine series
Kitchen Nightmares series

All boys, except one, grow up: Friday Update

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News:

A reminder that I’ll be participating in a virtual Horror Talent Showcase tomorrow, March 29, 8-10 PM EST, which you can sign up for here. I’ll be reading “Venus,” a narrative poem from the Verdant with Splinter and Thorn vicious spring section of seasonal horror poetry collection A Nightmare for All Seasons. I’ve done a virtual reading before for Queer Saints II, and it was a lot of fun.

Book & Candle (Meridan Book 5) by my other name is out in ebook.

Some good news on the medical front, but I’ll talk about it more when the labs get back. However, due to medical stuff, I’ll have to wait until next week before I start my venture into the gig economy. I’m excited and nervous in turns.

Works in Progress:

I finished the two short stories and decided to save the third for next month, because I had a lot of real-life things distracting me this last week. However, I also received the first edits for Tattered & Torn (Meridian Book 6) from my publisher, so I’m getting on that. I’m hoping to finish by end of the weekend or Monday. Then I’ll turn around and start my double edits on Tooth & Claw (Meridian Book 7).

During a walk, I thought of a juicy concept for a Meridian Book 8 that makes me excited about trying to write in that world again. It may be something I play with after Masque edits. I think eight books in a series feels more complete than seven, and it’ll address an important recurring theme in the other books.

Books I’m Reading:

The Fisherman by John Langan
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
Alien Secrets by Annette Curtis Klause (finished)
Playlist of the Damned edited by Willow Dawn Becker and Jess Landry

Things I’m Listening To:

Svrcina
Eurielle
Lily Kershaw

Things I’m Watching:

The Substance
Ma
Twisters
The Twister: Caught in the Storm
Meltdown: Three Mile Island
series
Celebrity Jeopardy series
Watson series
Ghosts (US) series
Abbott Elementary series
Elsbeth series
The Hunting Party series
CSI: NY series
CSI series
Criminal Minds series
Spring Baking Championship series
Reacher series
Grey’s Anatomy series
The Equalizer series
S.W.A.T. series
Brooklyn Nine-Nine series

Deeper and deeper we go: Friday Update

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News:

I had a really excellent phone and in-person interview this week that unfortunately did not yield fruit. So it looks like gig economy starts for me next week. I’m also having some medical issues piling on me all at once, and it’s uncomfortable and embarrassing and frustrating (and hopefully harmless). I could use a break.

I do have a little bit of good news on the publishing front, but I can’t give details at this time.

My fifth Meridian book under my other name is going wide on March 25, but you can pre-order it now. Book & Candle is a witch’s magic shop in mystical hotspot Meridian, TX. Her partner is stolen by succubi unknown, so she hires a dangerous veteran demon hunter to help her go scorched-earth to find him again. If you like tropes, it features enemies to lovers and age gap between older characters. You do not need to have read any of the other Meridian novels; they’re stand-alones. Tattered & Torn (Meridian 6) is also already available for pre-order.

Works in Progress:

I sent Tattered & Torn in to my publisher earlier this week and apologized profusely for being late from what I promised. She should get back to me by end of next week to do the first round of edits from her side. I don’t anticipate that these should take a long time to take care of.

I wrote some flash fiction and am in the middle of writing another short piece. I might write one more before going on to Tooth & Claw (Meridian 7) edits. I’ve also been mulling over a potential new book 8, created wholly from scratch rather than anything in my series notes, although I wouldn’t want to do anything about it until I finished my Masque edits.

Books I’m Reading:

The Fisherman by John Langan
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
Alien Secrets by Annette Curtis Klause

Things I’m Listening To:

Svrcina
Singer-songwriter playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Trap
Venom: The Last Dance
Heretic

CSI: NY series
CSI series
Criminal Minds series
Spring Baking Championship series
Slasher: The Executioner series (finished)
Reacher series
Grey’s Anatomy series
The Equalizer series
S.W.A.T. series

From the pollution: Friday Update

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News:

I’ll be reading a narrative poem from the Verdant with Splinter and Thorn section of poetry collection A Nightmare for All Seasons, “Venus,” for the Horror Talent Showcase put on by Mae Murray on March 29, 8-10 PM EST. You can purchase your free ticket for this event here.

Undertaker Books has posted their Table of Contents for the Carnival of Horror anthology coming out April 4. My story “Exile,” a sweet-sour tale about a clown who has grown too big for his circus, is part of this one. I was so happy to come up with a story idea for this sub call, so I’m thrilled to be part of the anthology.

I can’t find an article about it, but I’m tentatively happy that Dusty Deevers’ incredibly broad ‘pornography’ bill looks to have not made it out of committee, per Authors Against Book Banning. There’s still the SCREEN Act in the Senate and a few Texas bills that I have an eye on as far as what’s dangerous and paves the way for book banning/book burning, but that it didn’t get far in Oklahoma is a good thing in a sea of bad.

Works in Progress:

I finished the first round of edits for Tattered & Torn (Meridian Book 6) a few days. As anticipated, I cut a lot of words due to overwriting while trying to figure out where the story would go and how to get from one side of dialogue to the other. I cut 25K words from about 111K to 86K words, which is a substantial chunk.

I’m a little less than halfway through the second round, and it’s definitely moving a lot faster, which speaks to my ability to make really good changes, not just cuts, in the first round. I hope to finish by the end of the weekend—by end of Saturday would be ideal, but I’m on my period, and that makes things less certain.

Once I finish, I’ll send it in to my editor, then try to write a few short things before tackling Tooth & Claw (Meridian Book 7) edits.

Books I’m Reading:

The Fisherman by John Langan
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
Alien Secrets by Annette Curtis Klause

Things I’m Listening To:

Singer-songwriter playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Twisters
Warlock
Power Rangers
(2017)
Thinner
Nosferatu (2024)
CSI: NY series
CSI series
Criminal Minds series
Spring Baking Championship series
Slasher: The Executioner series
Reacher series
Grey’s Anatomy series
The Equalizer series
S.W.A.T. series

Stand your ground: Friday Update

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News:

Rescuing Curiosity, a WriteHive anthology, with my story “Marginalia,” came out on Tuesday. You can find it here.

Works in Progress:

In the last few days, I’ve committed to editing more pages of Tattered & Torn (Meridian 6), because I can’t keep going at this slow pace while watching my world burn and accomplish things in a timely fashion. My daily goal is around 20 pages (single-spaced), which isn’t entirely accurate, because I cut a lot of words on the way, so I’m actually editing more pages than that, I’m just editing them down to 20 pages. Aiming to finish the first round by the end of the weekend, then finishing the second round within a week or less. Still puts me about half a month behind, which disappoints me.

However, I’m sure the second round will be smoother and faster. I’m cutting a lot of words. I remember struggling a bit while writing this one and typing my way out of those struggles, so there’s a lot of extraneous verbiage. I’ve cut about 14K from 111K so far, and I’m only a little over halfway through.

Books I’m Reading:

The Fisherman by John Langan
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
Alien Secrets by Annette Curtis Klause

Things I’m Listening To:

Dracula Reborn soundtrack
The Blacklist playlist
Hannibal playlist
Drift playlist
Singer-songwriter playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Lesbian Vampire Killers (Funny story about this one. I saw it in a video store at the mall years and years ago, well before I was old enough to see it. I’d never even imagined watching an R movie at that time, so it intrigued me so much. It’s amusing how cheesy bad fun it is now that I finally watched it.)
To Catch a Killer
Love is Blind series (I tried to watch this for something mindless, but I’m DNFing it at 2.5 episodes. I don’t understand why I’m supposed to care about any of these people or yet another pretty people dating show. Plus, I can’t tell most of them apart.)
Reacher series
Celebrity Jeopardy series
Grey’s Anatomy series
The Equalizer series
S.W.A.T. series
Watson series
The Hunting Party series
NCIS series
Queer Eye series
Brooklyn Nine-Nine series

An Open Letter to the Entertainment Industry

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This is an open letter in response to the proposed SCREEN Act and many other efforts to ban LGBTQIA+ content and explicit content as pornographic:

I am a reader, writer, and watcher of a vast variety of entertainment, from classic children’s movies to extreme horror. Please excuse the essay below, but I feel like really important things are happening and going to happen, and we all need to be prepared to protect ourselves now rather than simply waiting for the worst.

It’s so easy to look at market forces in the short term and allow book burners and book banners to decide what content everyone is going to be able to read, write, and watch. There’s small but loud pressure to consider queer content ‘pornographic’ (regardless of actual sexual content, because they are the ones who sexualize queer existence), to declare all sexual content pornographic, and to then declare the distributors of pornographic content sex offenders.

What these people tried to do to LBG people, they’re using the same playbook for trans people, and because they’re such a small subset of the population, they’re a lot easier to target. Compromises are made out of fear rather than principle. They’re winning against trans people, and they’re applying the playbook once more to LBG people. People have already proven willing to throw one subculture under the bus, so why not another?

Amazon made its bones on the backs of indie writers and both small and large publishing companies. It doesn’t necessarily make a profit from us, but it’s still the place for published written content. Whether some people like it or not, the Internet was built on the back of erotic and sometimes queer content. Romance, erotic romance, erotica, romantasy, etc. dominate the top spots. Fifty Shades was a cultural phenomenon, paving the way for Sarah Maas and Colleen Hoover. All of this, and Amazon is making every effort to produce its own prestige content, which often includes queer and/or sexual content.

HBO (WB-Discovery) made its bones on both prestige and trashy sexual content, often with queer content, none so popular as Game of Thrones.

Netflix made its bones on queer and sexual content, coming into its own with Orange is the New Black, eventually hosting everything from the Fear Street trilogy to Stranger Things, Ryan Murphy vehicles, Bridgerton, and other juggernaut feel-good shows like Queer Eye and Great British Baking Show.

Even The Blacklist, which is NBC product but one of the most popular shows on the platform, is a decidedly queer story, to say nothing of the Star Trek series through CBS.

Disney has long capitulated to these loud but small voices, in part to continue to send their movies to highly censored but lucrative markets like China and Russia. Any queerness has been suggested rather than overt, not to mention villainized. Only recently has it been more overtly depicted, but sparingly. However, Disney also has control over content intended for teens and adults through such channels as ABC (Freeform), FX, and Fox Film and Television, hosted on Hulu (and now on Disney+ directly).

When these small but loud forces come for all queer and sexual content, all of your content will be at risk. It is simple enough to proceed with ‘acceptable’ and ‘clean’ content per regulations going forward, maybe, and eliminate all cultural gains made in favor of placid obedience. It will be more difficult to censor back decades of valuable and pervasive queer representation and on-screen sex intended for teen and primetime (adult) audiences.

Just off the top of my head, powerhouse mainstream and legacy shows like Glee, NCIS, American Horror Story, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, SWAT, anything Shondaland (Grey’s Anatomy, How to Get Away with Murder, Scandal), anything FX, anything HBO, ER, 9-1-1, Wheel of Time, Star Trek, Matlock (new), Ghosts, The Irrational, Will Trent, Brooklyn Nine-Nine… On the chopping block. That’s not even getting into movies or the decades of novels through publishing arms of these entertainment industries.

As someone who has had very little queer community in real life, queerness in television has been so important to me and to others and has been instrumental in getting mainstream America to see how our existence isn’t a threat to them. But book burners/banners are. They don’t want people to be able to read/write/watch what they want or for people to be responsible for their own content and avoid what they don’t like. They want people to only read/write/watch the things that book burners/banners watch, and they want to criminalize what they don’t like.

We could lose whole swaths of prestige shows and even just plain enjoyable dreck by calling them pornographic. John Waters said pornographers are important to all of us, canaries in the entertainment coal mine, because what they are allowed to do allows the rest of us to do what we want. (See also Evelyn Beatrice Hall summarizing Voltaire: ‘I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it.’)

American media has been censored and controlled in the past (and now) to certain degrees (see: the Hays Code, the present swath of book bans in schools). However, entertainment is not the same beast it was in the fifties. It has ballooned in size, power, influence, and ubiquity.

Streaming made so much more available to so many more people. I believe that attempts to censor or remove IPs with queer and/or sexual content will remove too much conscientiously created over the last 30 years with deliberate effort to depict queer people as they really are, rather than the terrifying predators that the far right believes us to be.

Religion is no longer the opiate of the masses. Entertainment is. I think if governments seek to control queer and sexual content by forcing censoring/removal of it beyond the merely annoying and oft ridiculed level of ‘edited for television,’ there will be more of a pushback than they are expecting from the general population. A disturbing number of people who enjoy modern romance and romantasy novels, sometimes with queer content, voted red.

I think that if these disappeared, there might be enough of a backlash, but in a theocracy, it’s difficult to say whether that can be depended upon to turn legislative/litigious tides. Netflix, Amazon, Disney, HBO, etc. all have a stake in what book burners/banners are trying to eliminate in books, movies, and television. And they have tremendous economic power. I beg you to refuse to budge. What they’re doing to books matters to you. You’re on the chopping block with us. These policies will affect you, but you have the economic power to resist and effect change. Please do not bow down the easy path now by self-censoring trans experiences. Censors learn what they can do by what you’ve already proven yourself willing to do.

Most big businesses lean conservative in hope of conserving a buck, but I believe supporting creators and your customers will lead to greater gains in the long run and that it’s most cost effective to take the risk of pushing back against book bans/burns as well as efforts to eliminate queerness and sexual elements from more visual media. I understand that these are businesses, but what most businesses forget is that they are also services. You can choose to accept civic duty or ignore it, but your choices have larger cultural consequences than profit, and it’s short-sighted to pretend otherwise.

Freedom of speech and expression is on the docket in this administration and beyond, because Project 2025 was never just about 2025 and has been in motion for decades with concerted and staggeringly successful efforts at banning vitally important books in schools. The book battle is your battle. They will eventually do it to you.

I am begging you, with your tremendous economic influence, to stop waiting to see where the wind will blow so you know which direction to go and instead step into this fight, hand in hand with book publishers and other entertainment companies, to protect speech, expression, cultural memory, the right of information, the right of parents to allow their kids to read, write, and watch according to their own principles rather than someone else’s, and the right for kids to see themselves in the media they consume and for teens to prepare for adulthood in the eminently safe spaces of entertainment. Too much information is less dangerous than too little, and diversity shouldn’t be a reluctant compromise. It literally makes everything better.

If you’ve made it this far, thank you for your time.

(Edited to add: I didn’t just post this here. I sent a version of this letter to the four big entertainment corporations listed above in November.)