The beast is dead: Saturday Update

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News:

“Take It to the River” won second place for the River theme at Shallow Waters last month. This month, “Sloppy” is showing up for the Bed theme. It should post about March 10 at the Crystal Lake Patreon ($5/month tier and up to read and vote, lots of fun every month).

Works in Progress:

I didn’t forget to post yesterday. I was just busy because I’d gone over my extended deadline to submit my edited manuscript of Never & Forever (Meridian Book 8) to my publisher. I’d initially promised it about mid-February, then the end of February, then yesterday. I only was able to get it in less than an hour ago. That damn thing was a beast at 140K words, and through my double edit, I ended up cutting about 30K from it, the excess almost entirely from my tendency to overwrite.

It’s frustrating on the editing side, because I remember how frustrated I was near the end of writing that it was taking so long. All you can think about while cutting whole chunks out is how much time it feels like you wasted. But I overwrite because I don’t know what I’ll need and sometimes I forget what I’ve already written because it’s been over a week since I wrote it. By and large, the shape of the novel is in the finished first draft. I rarely add. I just need to carve.

It’s done and submitted. I wrote a synopsis and everything. I’ll need to do my publisher’s edit, then the proofreading edits, but the worst is over. Now I need to rest but also start on the promotional materials for In the Dollhouse We All Wait, for which I am (you guessed it) behind. As soon as I get some of the promo done, I think I’ll get A Nightmare for All Seasons finished up and published. It’s mostly finished in its formatting file. I just need one more run-through and to check the blank pages and get the cover finalized. I won’t do a tremendous push for it all at once. I might do something for each season this year to promote it. But poetry collections are basically pet projects. They don’t get much attention, despite my absolute love for them.

So the rest of today is for rest. Tomorrow I start on promo. I’ll probably use my day off on Wednesday to prep for self-publishing the poetry collection.

Books I’m Reading:

Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin
The Shining by Stephen King
Skeleton Crew by Stephen King

Things I’m Listening To:

Billie Eilish
Timber Timbre
Eurielle
Agnes Obel
Dracula Untold soundtrack
Let’s Hear It for the Girls playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Resident Evil: Welcome to Raccoon City
Muppet Treasure Island
Army of the Dead
Broadchurch series
Queer Eye series
Ghosts (US) series
Watson series
Tracker series
CSI: Miami series
Home Town series

Poem of the Week:

smash the erratic cricket
because you can’t catch it
and from its depths arises
the tiniest cthulhian monstrosity
slender tentacular heads blindly
searching for a water way out
from its dying host
pod people in miniature
may they never adapt to us

Time to do all the things: Friday Update

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While trying to hit deadlines, little chores fall by the wayside, but today I need to get a few of them done, regardless. Work schedule changes aren’t quite going the way I want them to, but I’m going to continue playing around with it, because I really like getting home closer to dinnertime than, you know, ten or eleven at night. Delivering in sunlight is slightly less stressful than delivering after dark.

News:

Nothing this week.

Works in Progress:

I don’t think I’m going to make it through both editing rounds on Never & Forever (Meridian 8) before the end of the month, but I’m still going to try to get it done as soon as possible. I’ve cut almost 25K words from the manuscript, which means the second round will go a lot faster.

It’s frustrating, though, because I’m cutting a lot here at the end, and I remember how much I didn’t like how long the story was and how much I wanted to reach the end. But I made so much extra work for myself. I couldn’t know that then, but it would be nice if I could figure out how to write less to begin with. Most of it is just figuring out how to bridge from one part to another.

Once this is done, I need to get A Nightmare for All Seasons ready to publish, then I need to work on written and video promo for In the Dollhouse We All Wait, which will be available for preorder soon.

Books I’m Reading:

Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin
The Shining by Stephen King
Skeleton Crew by Stephen King

Things I’m Listening To:

Delain
Tina Guo
Billie Eilish
Elise Testone
Donna Missal
Let’s Hear It for the Girls playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Goosebumps 2: Haunted Halloween
Ghosts (US) series
Goosebumps (original) series
Watson series
Will Trent series
Tracker series
CSI: Miami series
Home Town series

Poem of the Week: (throwback to February 2023)

heads bowed low
knees scraped and
bruised blue during
this darkest rein
of heinous crimes
and torturous ends
spread rose petals
at a monarch’s feet
at darkest night
for divine right

Everything changes: Friday Update

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I worked morning/afternoon instead of afternoon/evening on Tuesday so I could have the Fat Tuesday pancake dinner at home, and it ended up going so well that I’m considering altering my work schedule to do more during the days. I work morning/evening under certain circumstances that require me to come home for a few hours in the middle, but that had always been less successful that I hadn’t considered morning/afternoon without breaks would be fine. We’ll see how it shakes out, but that would mean I’d need to shift my writing work to after grocery work, which is when I’m more tired. I’ll figure things out.

News:

Nothing this week.

Works in Progress:

Had some bad news with grocery work (not related to the schedule changes), and that took the wind out of my sales for a few days, including Wednesday, my other day off. I’ll try to make up for it today. Still editing Never & Forever (Meridian Book 8), and I’ve cut about 17K words from the manuscript so far. Pretty solid. I want to get a good chunk done today, because I’m worried I won’t finish the second round by end of the month if I don’t.

Books I’m Reading:

Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin
The Shining by Stephen King
Skeleton Crew by Stephen King

Things I’m Listening To:

Delain
Elysion
The Burning Halo
Let’s Hear It for the Girls playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Clown in a Cornfield
Heart Eyes
Is It Cake? Valentines
Will Trent
series
Tracker series
CSI: Miami series
Home Town series
Resident Alien series (finished)

Poem of the Week:

It’s not the nightmares so much as the disorientation
between asleep and awake when you aren’t quite sure
which one is more real until it’s the dream that fades.
For a moment, your bed, your room, yourself, is less solid
than the slippery, sticky world you must leave behind.

Turn the light out: Friday Update

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News:

“Take It to the River” is up at the Crystal Lake Patreon for the River flash fiction theme contest. ($5/month tier and up for reading and voting privileges)

Works in Progress:

Never & Forever (Meridian Book 8) first round edits are going a little more slowly than I’d like, but I’m doing as much as I can with the time I have. I do have to pause today to get a short story ready for a February 15 deadline, but I should be able to knock out another big chunk of N&F edits on this day off, hopefully.

I’m not a fan of juggling projects, but sometimes needs must.

Books I’m Reading:

Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin
The Shining by Stephen King
Skeleton Crew by Stephen King

Things I’m Listening To:

Delain
Hannibal playlist
Drift playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Bone Lake
Tracker series
CSI: Miami series
CSI series
Resident Alien series

Poem of the Week:

My mother wrote a letter,
slipped under my door.
She never got better.
I learned to never ask for more.

She’s been dead for years.
Time to face her excuse.
Holding back tears,
I shake the letter loose.

An unsigned birthday Hallmark card,
day and month all wrong.
Ma, so long.

Still not decelerating: Friday Update

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News:

“Take It to the River” is a finalist for this month’s RIVER theme at Crystal Lake Shallow Waters. It’ll post at the Patreon about February 16. ($5/month tiers for reading and voting)

Works in Progress:

I was supposed to be slowing down, but it still hasn’t happened. I wonder if this pace is simply what my brain demands. However, it’s not all my fault; it’s more about external deadlines. Once I get contractually obligated edits done, I’ll have a whole stretch of months before the next one (Masque, July). Then I’ll try to take my time.

Cleaned up the final draft of In the Dollhouse We All Wait, and although I wasn’t able to get much done on Thursday due to oversleeping, I actually knocked out quite a bit of the first round of edits on Never & Forever (Meridian Book 8). I hope to do another big sweep today. At this point, a lot of the work is cutting; second round will be polish. Ideally, I’d cut the book down from 141K to under 110K before even getting to the second round of edits.

Books I’m Reading:

Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin
The Shining by Stephen King
Skeleton Crew by Stephen King

Things I’m Listening To:

Christmas playlist (finally putting this away; seemed appropriate during the Icepocalypse, but once we hit February, it started feeling weird)
Metal playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Volcano
Tracker series
9-1-1 series
9-1-1: Nashville series
Elsbeth series
Resident Alien series

Poem of the Week: (throwback to 2022)

a critter
with doleful eyes
eyes eyes eyes
and legs legs
so many legs
chitters lovingly
at the foot of your bed

Melting: Saturday Update

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I’m late again this week, but in my defense, I had no idea yesterday was Friday until after midnight today. Had the whole week off from work because most of that white in the picture above isn’t snow. It’s sleet. Ice takes a lot longer to melt down than snow, because the snow melts and solidifies to ice on top of the existing ice… I didn’t feel safe leaving the house until Friday, which is usually a day off for me, and even then, I worked during the day instead of afternoon/evening. All my schedules are off. I should be back to normal by next week.

News:

I can finally share the cover for In the Dollhouse We All Wait, and it’s freaking amazing. The artwork is by David Kozlovsky, and I got to get a glimpse of his sketches as he worked. I’m blessed beyond measure, as they say, to have indie horror art for Dollhouse.

I finished the final proofreading round of edits, thanks to the Icepocalypse, and I’ve been given an official release date of April 10, 2026.

Works in Progress:

After finishing the proofreading round for Dollhouse, I edited and submitted my flash fiction to Shallow Waters, then got hit with a short story idea for something with a deadline mid-February. I think the concept is better than the execution right now, but I’m still striving to finish, because maybe the execution can be fixed in edits. I would have liked to use the Icepocalypse to work on my double edit of Never & Forever (Meridian Book 8), but the timing just wasn’t right, sadly. The deadline for Dollhouse was much harder than the tentative deadline for the N&F edits. I’ll really have to buckle down when I finish this short story, though.

Books I’m Reading:

Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin
The Shining by Stephen King
Skeleton Crew by Stephen King

Things I’m Listening To:

Christmas playlist

Things I’m Watching:

My Norwegian Holiday
Bugonia
What Lies Beneath
The Bone Collector
Dante’s Peak
Truth or Dare
(2017)
9-1-1 series
9-1-1: Nashville series
Stranger Things series (finished)
Elsbeth series
Resident Alien series

Poem of the Week:

It is relief
not to feel
relief
I love
not to feel
love
a monstrous sensation
to feel monstrous
and not recoil
from my coils
give me cold blood
and armored scales
steal feeling
’til heart beats
still

Fire and Ice, 1/24/2026

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watching fire and ice in the north,
contemplating frost’s apocalypse
as the vortex descends and patrollers
expand fractures into crumbling concrete.

and so i sit shivering
like a rabbit in the snow,
wondering if i still know
how to whistle.

just pucker your lips and
blow a cloud into the cold,
hope to find the fire in
the quivering soul

when the time comes,
as time always comes.
they say things will get better,
but that doesn’t help now.
they say things will get worse.
i can only imagine how.

i wish for a hole in the ground,
to huddle in the earth.
i wish for a bullet.
i wish for a bed.
i wish for snowfall and silence,
for mist instead of smoke.

is there will in a wish,
a spine in a dream,
a warmth to glow golden
in the thawing heart?
do we get to see the spring
or remember what it means?

And winter came: Saturday Update

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Had to delay writing this because I started work yesterday morning so I could achieve my quota and be home in time for dinner and well before the freezing started. I was more than willing to stress myself out helping people before the Icepocalypse, but Amanda does not drive on ice. The grocery stores were adventure after adventure; it wasn’t this intense even during Thanksgiving and Christmas shopping. Raise a glass to your grocery workers, who did amazing keeping staples stocked as best as they could. Everyone, stay safe and warm.

News:

“Divergences” won 3rd place this month at the Crystal Lake Shallow Waters flash fiction contest, themed Regret.

Works in Progress:

I started the double edit on Never & Forever (Meridian Book 8) and almost promptly had to set it aside, because I received the last edits for In the Dollhouse We All Wait, and since formatting needs to be done by the end of January, these take precedence. Because of work, I’m a little less than a third through, but because of the Icepocalypse, I can’t work this weekend and probably Monday, and that should give me the time to finish up and send it back out.

Then I need to edit my flash fiction entry for the Shallow Water theme given for next month’s posts, themed Rivers, if you’d like to participate. It’s a heart-breaking little story that probably affects me more than the reader, but it was still kind of startling how strongly writing it hit me. Like an emotional gut punch over and over. Hopefully, some distance makes it less painful.

Books I’m Reading:

Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin
The Shining by Stephen King
Skeleton Crew by Stephen King

Things I’m Listening To:

Christmas playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Bring Her Back
Final Destination: Bloodline
9-1-1: Nashville series
Stranger Things series
Resident Alien series

Poem of the Week: (throwback to January 2023)

skate blades hiss
over frozen surface
swirls of particle ice
spin and twirl
finest graceful form
slice and cut
through frigid air
scarlet scarves flutter
in festive spread
full moon rising
over crimson ice

If the Fates allow: Friday Update

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News:

“Necessity,” a funny bad bathroom horror story, was selected for the Books of Horror Community Anthology Part 1. You can pre-order it here, for release January 23.

You can also read “The Coffee Pots are Empty and All the Zombies are Here,” another funny horror story, this time work horror, in Tales of Sley House 2025. You can purchase the ebook or the paperback directly from the publishing company or from Amazon. My story is featured right on the cover, which is cool. This apparently came out in September, but it slipped by me.

Works in Progress:

Finished fixing/editing the Dracula retelling. I’m kind of leaning toward self-publication sometime next year, mostly for creative control and because I’m watching some nightmares unfold for other people struggling with getting their rights back, but I’m still not a hundred percent sure how I feel about going that route.

These edits took longer than I thought they would, so I’m going to have to push May Cooler Heads Prevail back again until after I do the double edit of Never & Forever (Meridian Book 8), because if I wait much longer, I’m not going to meet the deadline I promised for getting that in.

I am writing a piece of flash as a palate cleanser, but as soon as that’s done, I’ll start on the N&F edits.

Books I’m Reading:

Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin (I’d finish this, but I’m honestly not sure where I put it)
The Shining by Stephen King
Skeleton Crew by Stephen King

Things I’m Listening To:

Christmas playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Holiday Road
Troll 2
Renfield
Primate

Stranger Things series
Resident Alien series
Dr. Pimple Popper: Breaking Free series (finished)

Poem of the Week: (throwback to January 2023)

the frost caught the spider
by surprise in her parlor
sending a blast of crystal
and the tiniest of icicle
across the net of her web
leaving both host and guests dead
in frozen gossamer lace
glimmering in the rise of day

Still listening to Christmas music: Friday Update

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And you can’t stop me. 2026 has been one manmade disaster after another. I’ll listen to what I like.

News:

“Hell Come Home” was included on Ellen Datlow’s list of recommended 2024 short stories. She’s a horror anthology legend, so her recommendations hold weight.

“Divergences,” a piece of horror flash fiction, will be posted tomorrow on the Crystal Lake Patreon as a finalist of last month’s theme of Regret. ($5/month tier or higher to read and vote)

Works in Progress:

I’m about two-thirds through my fix of the Dracula reimagining. It doesn’t require a lot of intense work, but I’m also doing a standard edit as I go, because I might as well as long as I’m doing a close read for the details that need to change. Just a bit of a tidy.

Once I’m finished, I’ll write a piece of flash or two before hitting May Cooler Heads Prevail edits.

Books I’m Reading:

Raising Loki: A Memoir by Elliot Manarin
The Shining by Stephen King
Skeleton Crew by Stephen King

Things I’m Listening To:

Christmas playlist

Things I’m Watching:

Mickey’s Christmas Carol
Muppet Christmas Carol
Gremlins
Joyeux Noel
Black Christmas
(1974)
Ocean’s 8
Christmas Inheritance

Holidate
Troll
Wicked: For Good
Together
The Christmas Charade
Legion

Dr. Pimple Popper: Breaking Free series
Transplant series (finished)
Monk (S7) series (finished)
Twelve Dates ’til Christmas series (finished)
Holiday Baking Championship series (finished)
Great British Baking Show series (finished)
Great British Baking Show: Holiday Edition series (finished)

Poem of the Week:

shed the skin
shed the sinew
shed the pounds
shed the hounds
shed the sorrow
shed the morrow
shed the marrow
shed the horror
shed it down to parts
to unatomed hearts
they are no use
where you’re going